Synergy to Synastry: Listener Qs & Live Reading: The Half Wing (S2E2) Podcast Transcript

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Welcome

Renee: You're listening to Synergy to Synastry, the podcast where two corporate girlies call to follow their intuition take you on a journey of self-exploration through metaphysical modalities.

Christine: I'm Christine, intuitive coach and clairvoyant.

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Renee: Now, let's get into the episode.

Christine: Welcome to a very special listener episode of Synergy to Synastry.

Christine: Today, we'll be answering some questions from our podcast listeners, as well as sharing a live reading with a listener.  

Christine: If you'd like to be read on the podcast through a write-in question or a live reading, please email us at synergytosynastry@gmail.com.

Christine: Today's listener opted to remain anonymous, and you can too.  

Christine: Before we get to that reading, let's answer your content questions.

Psychic Animal Communication

Christine: Okay, so the first question we have from our listeners, it was phrased in a way of do our pets go to heaven?  

Christine: But basically, you know, do animals have souls?  

Christine: Can we communicate with them after they've passed on?

Christine: Like we communicate with our human friends and family who have passed on.

Renee: Never had a pet.

Renee: So I've never made any sort of attempt to do this.

Renee: For the listener, Christine is appalled.

Renee: Her jaw is on the floor.

Renee: I have heard of this as a thing from books I've read, from listening to other intuitives.

Renee: There are some psychics out there who specifically work with animals who have passed over, and there's others who are just generally mediums, and they also happen to connect to animals.  

Renee: I have not personally done that, but I have less drive to do that because I don't have any loved ones in animal form.

Christine: My mind has been blown.

Christine: You know, Renee and I chat a lot, and I haven't known this about her, so this is new for me.  

Christine: Renee is a pet aunt by default because my cat Copper is obsessed with her.  

Christine: Well, I have had many a pet in my life, and I have had a medium communicate with them, so I can attest that that has happened.  

Christine: I also did a reading for someone who had questions about their dog, and I channeled into that dog's energy, and that was accurate.  

Christine: And what's interesting is I just listened to a recent podcast episode from Teresa Caputo.  

Christine: The name of the episode is The Healing Power of Connection, where the person that she reads, her pets come through for most of the episode, which I thought was really interesting.  

Christine: So, I feel like the universe put this in my path to confirm that, yes, our pets have souls, and yes, once they cross over, we can communicate with them like we would any other spirit.

Renee: As you were saying that, I was remembering that I recently finished the book Signs by Laura Lymnn Jackson.  

Renee: Have you read that?  

Renee: I recommend it.

Renee: It was a good read.

Renee: In general, it was an easy read.

Renee: Content warnings, there's a lot of death in it and a lot of dead children in this book.

Renee: Yeah, so I'm like, gosh, another one?  

Renee: It's so sad.

Renee: But one of the arguments that she makes in the book as a medium, we all give off and are made up of energy.

Renee: And of course, if we're made of matter and made of energy, so are trees, so are cats, so are any other living thing.

Renee: Keep in mind, we already know that there are some animals out there that use echolocation, things that we can't necessarily see or hear.

Renee: There's just more beyond what our bodies can perceive.  

Renee: So to walk around thinking, well, there's no way that we can ever connect with them.  

Renee: I think a lot of pet owners would disagree.

Renee: Like how many times if you own a dog, does it just randomly start barking?

Renee: There could be a spirit there, and the dog is sensing the energy, just as we could sense that somebody who's passed on has entered into the space.

Renee: It would make sense that if any sort of animal that has connected with people passes over, that it would be able to do the same thing.

Collborative Spirit Councils

Renee: The second question that we're gonna be talking about today was inspired by the Spirit Council and Akashic Records episode.

Renee: That was episode 13.

Renee: And the question reads, how do you use a Spirit Council for a collaborative initiative?

Renee: We actually have a perfect example of this.

Renee: We, as in myself and Christine, when we finally met for the first time and we were in person and we had our own little retreat, we did a joint Spirit Council.

Renee: The reason that we even thought to do this is because we were taught through the Nuurvana program that you can have multiple intuitives tapping into the same council, whether it's a project or a business or in our case, a podcast.

Renee: How Christine and I were taught to do this is that you sit down in meditation and we have access to one of the pre-recorded Nuurvana activations, so we were using that.

Renee: Closed our eyes, we each had a notebook next to us.  

Renee: We had set the intention going in that we wanted a short list of questions addressed as relates to planning season 2 of the podcast.

Renee: You visualize your highest self entering into a movie theater.

Renee: I was picturing Christine entering, she was picturing me entering, and that we energetically tie into the screen or tie to each other and then we follow the meditation through the rest of the instructions.

Renee: Christine had her pen flying and racing across the paper, taking a ridiculous amount of notes.  

Renee: I was trying to stay in it and not open my eyes.  

Renee: It's a practice that I've been working on, that I've gotten in a habit of meditating and pretty much just having my eyes open most of the time, rather than really trying to go in and lose myself more in it.

Renee: So I waited until afterwards when the meditation had finished, opened my eyes, wrote my notes down, and then we turned to each other to compare what we came up with.

Renee: So Christine, do you want to share some of the highlights or just your thoughts on that experience?

Christine: Yeah, I just think it was pretty cool that we kind of took what we had learned, right?  

Christine: We know how to go to the Spirit Council and we know how to sort of intuit into the same thing together and we kind of smash them together.

Christine: So I felt like it was a graduate level course for us in Intuitive Abilities.

Christine: Since we set the intention to do it together, we came out with similar stories.

Christine: Like we truly did have a collaborative experience together, which I thought was really cool. 

Renee: We both had overlapping imagery.

Renee: I've done the Spirit Council meditation so many times since we recorded that episode.

Renee: And typically, I'll see relatively the same imagery, maybe what I'm wearing in the meditation swaps out, maybe different animals or flowers or things are appearing.

Renee: But the basic framework of the world that I've built when I navigate through that meditation are the same.

Renee: And as an example, there's one part where you cross over a small stream to go into the woods.

Renee: And when I started to do that, I saw a black fog going underneath, which was very odd, because I've never seen anything like that before.

Renee: It's usually just the water and I'm interacting with it, or I don't and I keep going.

Renee: And when I shared this with Christine when we came out of it, she said, Oh, I see black fog all the time!

Renee: I had no idea that that was something that was a part of her normal, intuitive world for these readings.

Renee: And it popped into mine.  

Renee: And there were aspects of hers where, as an example, when you sit down at the table with different guides, I had some of Christine's guides and she had some of mine, where when she was telling me about who was sitting at the table, I was like, oh yeah, no, I've had a person like that before.

Renee: And that's not something that she knows.

Christine: Yeah, I think those things were just cool for me.

Christine: We were reading each other and reading something else at the same time.

Christine: I was very impressed with us.

Renee: So for listeners, if you are curious to try this, we have an infographic out on social.

Renee: You can also go back and listen to episode 13 if you want to hear the overview rather than reading it.

Renee: We just happened to be in the same room.

Renee: We thought it was a great opportunity to do the Spirit Council together.

Renee: But you could do it asynchronistically if you wanted, because ultimately, each of you are either going to get overlapping information or insights that are complimentary, and that was the outcome that we had for ours.

Renee: We're excited to use everything that we learned from that and apply it to season 2.

Listener Reading

Renee: Before we share the live listener reading, we'd like to acknowledge that the audio quality is not ideal.

Renee: There was a very active and adorable child at play, so you'll periodically hear sounds of chatter weaving in and out.

Renee: The audio was cleaned as much as possible during post-production and your understanding is much appreciated.

Renee: We hope you find this vulnerable conversation and intuitive messages shared to be just as insightful as always.

Renee: And now let's get to the live reading from our listener.

Christine: The first image I'm seeing is like a very high level overview of this town, made out of candy.

Christine: And the reason I'm laughing is because on this podcast, almost every reading that I do has some form of like food involved.

Christine: The roofs are missing some shingles, and like the walls are cracked a little bit.

Christine: It functions, but it's ready for a big renovation.

Listener: Can that maybe relate to like where I live?

Christine: We can look into it more, but the feeling that I'm getting, I feel like this is like an overall image of your life.

Christine: Like it's not just a building, it feels like everything is ready for a fresh start.

Christine: And I feel like you're ready for a fresh start.

Christine: Like you have the paint, you're ready to give it a fresh coat of paint.

Listener: It makes sense.

Listener: Yeah, I get what you're saying.

Listener: Yeah, with other situations, yeah.

Christine: Yeah, okay.  

Renee: What I was seeing was those ball pits, like you'd see at Chuck E. Cheese or whatever they have nowadays.  

Renee: It was a bunch of tiny pink pom-poms.  

Renee: What you would see at an arts and crafts store, kind of squishy and have like little silver sparkles woven in and sticking out, if you know what I'm talking about.  

Renee: But you're looking for just one in particular.  

Renee: So I'm just seeing like fingers going in, and you're just reaching and trying to find just the perfect one that you want.  

Renee: And I was looking into the significance of this, and the language I got around it was precision through play.  

Renee: Meaning, you in particular using play and relaxation in your life, like there's a bit of a gap there. 

Renee: Why do you have to dig for just the right one?

Renee: Like it's almost over complicating because you're trying to control the exact environment versus remembering that you're trying to get a pom pom so that you can do something that's fun.  

Listener: Well, I definitely feel like I don't have any of that fun in my life and no relaxation.  

Listener: I feel always on that high alert feeling and hypervigilant.  

Listener: I have that issue because of my living environment.  

Renee: So do you want us to look into our respective images more, or do you want to pivot to a question? 

Renee: Because we also have the opportunity to come back, like this is your time.  

Listener: You can keep going.

Christine: So the image that I'm looking at of you with this like town that basically needs to be refurbished, you are ready to go.  

Christine: You have your paint, you're working on things already.

Christine: Spirit's like not worried about you making this new move or building whatever you need to build for yourself. 

Christine: I see you just all alone in this town and you're trying to build everything on your own.

Christine: You can't see like the people who were there who are going to help you.  

Christine: In the coming months, you're going to start to grow a community because I slowly see people starting to trickle in.  

Christine: Part of what makes it hard is that I feel like you're almost not used to having a community.  

Christine: So you're not going to know what to do with it at first.  

Christine: But Spirit wants you to know it's coming.  

Christine: And what they want you to know is to have a lot of grace with yourself. 

Christine: We are humans and we are messy.

Christine: And that is just the nature of being human.  

Christine: And you're going to meet new people and you're going to make mistakes. 

Christine: And you're going to play in your head certain interactions in like, why did I say that?

Christine: This is all part of the human experience.  

Christine: Even though things seem very tough right now, putting yourself out there and just having a conversation, whether it's perfect or not, is exactly what you need to be doing.  

Christine: We're not going to keep everybody that we meet.  

Christine: The community that you're going to invite to stay is going to love you no matter what. 

Christine: So maybe you use the wrong word in a sentence, they don't care.

Christine: Or maybe you were just off one day.

Listener: I definitely feel that this relates to where I'm at right now, because I am feeling that I need to make this change in my life, because I think it would be healthier for me, because I'm starting to feel like totally emotionally drained and physically sick.  

Listener: I'm very sensitive like that, because I have a lot of sensitivities to energy and just people.  

Listener: It drains me.  

Listener: Sometimes I feel sick from certain situations or negativity, and it's gotten to a point beyond what I can even handle physically anymore and mentally.  

Listener: But for a very long time, I would feel ready, but not ready.  

Listener: I can't explain it, but literally just recently, just the last few days, I'm starting to feel a different kind of ready.  

Christine: Yep.  

Christine: You were doing exactly what you were supposed to be doing.  

Christine: You knew you had to make a change.  

Christine: You were sitting on it until the right moment, and now is the right moment.

Christine: So Spirit is actually congratulating you for listening to your own intuition.

Listener: And no one believes me that I want to make this change because I've been stuck in this very negative situation, surrounded by conditional love, surrounded by, I want to say, narcissism.  

Listener: I always was around family.  

Listener: I always had a business.  

Listener: I was always around kids and people that became like my family, and I lost my business to COVID, and I lost both of my parents.  

Christine: I would say, definitely for us over the last year, but it was probably building before that, everything crumbled.

Christine: And I think that's something that's happening during this period of time, so that we can start to rebuild.

Christine: And when I say we, I mean us sensitive people can start to rebuild in a way that's times better for us than anything ever was.  

Christine: But of course, nothing's easy.  

Christine: And the reason I say this is to let you know that you're not crazy.  

Christine: We're all feeling it.  

Christine: So with that, I'll let Renee go.  

Christine: Thank you. 

Renee: What I was seeing was you flipping through what looked to me initially like a kid's history book.

Renee: Do either of you remember flipping through highlights from however many decades ago that was?  

Renee: Trying to find activities that feed your soul.  

Renee: That was how it was framed to me.

Renee: As far as how to apply it, how to apply this, how to have more fun in your life and have that fun be healing for yourself and a relaxation tool and resetting.  

Renee: It can really support a lot of what you were just talking about with Christine.  

Renee: Picking very small tasks, so something that's five to ten minutes and it's your playtime. 

Renee: That's how it was framed to me.

Renee: It could be you're doing Sudoku or Wordle, you're doing a coloring book meditation, you're doing a free write or scribbling.  

Renee: For the free write and scribbling piece, it felt like a platform for you to get frustrations out and energies out, so anything that's really bothering you. 

Renee: As an example, Christine and I have been doing this program called The Artist's Way, and they have you do morning pages.

Renee: So every single morning, you're sitting there and you have to write three full pages, just free writing, at least by the second page, if not earlier.  

Renee: I start feeling a clearing, because you're creating this extra space in your mind before you start your day, because it's the first thing that you're doing.  

Renee: If it's not something you can do in the morning, any sort of a free write or scribbling or writing, whatever, just getting out of your system, it's whenever fits in your schedule.  

Renee: Some days I'm planning my entire day.  

Renee: I'm not reflecting on my life.  

Renee: Other mornings, I have a ton of ideas that come through because you're giving yourself space to think and play and engage with topics or perspectives that you don't normally.  

Renee: Also, more examples of things you could do.  

Renee: It could be literally eating a piece of chocolate.  

Renee: With intention, you are saying, this is my play time.  

Renee: And even if it's one minute, because that's how long it takes you to eat that small dessert, then it's the intention of you saying, this is a fun thing for me, I can enjoy this and just kind of feel centered and reset.  

Renee: The larger nudge here that I'm getting with all of this imagery is a return to your inner child.  

Renee: Have you heard of inner child work?  

Listener: No.  

Renee: You can do this in therapy.  

Renee: You can do this with journaling questions.  

Renee: That's really the easiest inroad.  

Renee: If you just Google inner child journaling questions, you'll see hundreds and hundreds and hundreds come up.  

Renee: In our lives, we tend to lose some of that passion or the things that we really enjoyed when we were kids. 

Renee: And in some ways, it's tied to trauma or bad environments or negative influences of people in our lives.

Renee: And so you're undoing some of that by going back and reflecting.

Renee: And some meditations as an example, you're hugging your inner child or you're saying, what would they have wanted to hear at age six?  

Renee: Another just really simple inroad that's not super, super heavy, if that's not something that you feel like you have the bandwidth to do right now, is just doing something that's fun and playful.  

Renee: Because you can think about it as, I am having a play date with the eight-year-old version of me.

Renee: When I was eight, she liked to do this.  

Renee: So I'm going to do that today.  

Renee: And it could be listening to a song, something that you ate when you were a kid.  

Renee: The intention of trying to reconnect to who you were before everything else in your life has happened.  

Listener: I definitely feel that a lot and I feel it actually on a daily basis.  

Listener: And when I was just actually just before I came on here, I was outside a little while ago with my son. 

Listener: And I'm in my neighborhood where I grew up.

Listener: And I was thinking of being a kid.  

Listener: And when my dad would get off the bus and I would hear like the, I knew the sound like at like 6:30, 7 o'clock at night, like that was his boss.

Listener: And like, I actually had the urge to do something that I used to do when I was a kid or when I was with my family.

Listener: And especially because I was in that childhood environment and my son was actually playing by the, by this parking lot that's at the corner.

Listener: And I said, wow, I used to do that when I was a kid.

Listener: You know, I also want to try to connect more with my inner child, if that makes sense, what you just said, because I can connect maybe better with my child.

Listener: And I hope that this change is the right change for him and me.

Listener: And I hope that it doesn't bring too much negativity because of the negative person that's there.

Listener: And that's pretty much what has always been holding me back.

Listener: And I also, I look at the glass half full, not half empty.

Listener: And I try to heal people, and I try to help people.

Listener: And sometimes there is no help or hope for someone that doesn't want to help themselves. 

Christine: As you were talking, I was seeing like an image of you a year from now.

Christine: And like you and your son, you still have a stroller for some reason.  

Christine: I know he's walking, but you still have a stroller.  

Christine: But you guys are like walking along the dock.  

Christine: There's another person with you who you're very close with.  

Christine: There's a couple of people that you're meeting.

Christine: And the whole scene is like very calm.  

Christine: And that's what I'm seeing for you like a year from now.  

Christine: Who's gonna be more calm? 

Christine: Nervous system is regulated.

Christine: You're happier.  

Christine: He's calmer.  

Christine: It's hard being a sensitive person in this world and not wanna just help.  

Christine: But sometimes the best thing you can do is focus on you.  

Christine: And so every time you're sort of doubting yourself that you should be doing more for someone else, remember this because you doing for you is doing for everyone else.  

Renee: To whatever degree you have with your current mental load and capacity, a small amount of healing, kind of chipping away, filling your cup, then you're gonna enter every situation from a better mindset because you're not gonna be carrying frustrations, weights, regrets or grudges.  

Renee: The more that you're doing even in 5 to 10 minutes a day or every other day or however it works, that small chipping helps sustain you and just give you a little bit extra fuel.  

Renee: So then you can present more in alignment with that best version of yourself and you're on that path with the direction that you're supposed to go.  

Renee: And we can attest to this.  

Renee: Things just start falling into place and they're lining up and you go, oh my gosh, I can't believe this happened and that happened. 

Renee: Shifting your own energy actually has a very big impact on the world that you're then seeing, how you view it and then the pieces around you, who you're choosing to engage with, decisions that you're making, opportunities that are presented to you, signs that you're seeing, whatever it may be.

Listener: That makes a lot of sense.

Christine: Well, I know we're coming close to the end, but I wanted to see if you had any specific questions for us, you know, anything you wanted to go over.  

Renee: It doesn't have to be a fully formulated question, but it's like, oh, I want to look into my career or my love life or whatever it is.  

Renee: It can be a general topic.

Renee: And if not, then we can just wrap up.  

Listener: But up to you.  

Listener: I mean, career or love life, yeah, that's, I guess I think love life also has to do with these changes. 

Listener: Career-wise, I'm a little confused on what I should do and what I shouldn't do.

Listener: And I actually started a course that I'm taking in the medical field that I actually always felt that I wanted to do.  

Listener: When I went to the clinicals in person, like I was surrounded by people that looked at me like a person and didn't look at me like I was just a piece of dust. 

Listener: Cause I'm surrounded, like I said, around a lot of negativity. 

Listener: So I don't know if I was feeling that because of, just because I'm like, oh wow, people.

Listener: Or like if it was just because I was on the right track, because I should be in the medical field.  

Listener: I'd love to write like you were saying, but I also love to dance and move and feel music like that.  

Listener: Always brought out more of my intuitive side, and it brought out like so many connections for me.  

Listener: And I miss a lot of that as well. 

Listener: So I sometimes feel like, oh my gosh, like I wish I could do what I used to do to the capacity I was.

Listener: But then I also like this other thing that I'm doing too in the medical field.  

Listener: So it's like, I'm like this, you know?  

Listener: Is it both?

Listener: Is it one?  

Listener: Is it?  

Christine: I don't know.  

Christine: When you were talking about the medical field, and I'm curious how it felt for you.  

Christine: But I feel like when you started working on this medical thing, it felt so expansive for you.  

Christine: Like I just saw a gold ball of white, like exploding out of your heart.  

Christine: And it's not in your head that like, oh, just because it's new people, like new people don't have to treat you nice. 

Christine: You know, like new people don't always give off this feeling. 

Christine: You are on the right track.

Christine: So trust yourself in that.

Christine: Dance for you now feels like something that is private and is just for you.

Christine: It feels like however you did dance in the past where you gave it away to the public, like this is now your own private thing.  

Christine: And I see you kind of either going to a studio and lighting time by yourself, or being part of an adult class of people who've had a history of dancing, but now want to do it as an adult.  

Christine: I was listening to a podcast about a guy who grew up doing karate.  

Christine: He opened up a business doing karate when he was like 21.  

Christine: He went into like insurance or something.  

Christine: And while insurance doesn't sound super exciting, it allowed him to be home to see his daughter's first steps.  

Christine: And it just it was a vehicle to give him the life that he wanted. 

Christine: And now he'll step in and he'll do karate classes when he wants to because it's something he loves.  

Christine: It's totally okay for us to pivot.  

Christine: So my point is that medical thing feels so good.  

Christine: And I think you know it feels good.  

Christine: So go with it.  

Christine: Trust your intuition.  

Christine: You have it. 

Listener: And I also like I was more driven to it, I guess, when I was in the environment a lot with both of my parents passing.

Listener: So I was a lot like months in that environment.

Listener: So I guess I saw and learned a lot.  

Listener: So I my interest was more sparked. 

Listener: I know this sounds strange, but it kind of I almost feel like it brings me closer to the last time I saw my comments.

Renee: Yeah, what I was seeing or what I asked really was how do you create balance with all of the different things that you could be doing or that you want to do.

Renee: And what I got was three, two, one, meaning you could do something three times a week, another thing two times a week, and then the third thing once a week.

Renee: You create some sort of a pattern, but it's not trying to put equal energy everywhere.  

Renee: And maybe one week you're doing something that's studying and you do that more because you have a class and then you do homework one day and then you read something another day.  

Renee: That's three times.  

Renee: And the following week maybe you only do it once. 

Renee: So it doesn't have to be so regimented that every single week I'm going to do yoga four days.

Renee: It's allowing some flexibility while making sure that you're still incorporating each of those hobbies and experiences and aspects of nourishment that will support you.  

Renee: So it's not going too long. 

Renee: You're not having large lapses.

Renee: You get it to be zero.  

Renee: It's just a little bit harder to come back because you start talking yourself out of it of, oh, like, I couldn't keep up with it.  

Renee: So even if you can just do it once and even if it's only for one minute, okay, well, that counts for the week.  

Renee: And that'll just make you feel better.

Listener: No, I definitely can connect with that.  

Christine: Oh, have you ever heard of cord cutting?  

Listener: I have actually.  

Listener: Yeah.  

Christine: I feel like there's a huge cord, like, corded into your heart.  

Christine: And it's connected to, it feels like a group of people who just don't have your best interest at heart anymore.  

Christine: I feel like they see the goodness in you and they're just draining you.  

Christine: You mean, yeah. 

Christine: The energy from other people, especially these people who are siphoning your energy, they're taking it away from you, their energy is not good for you.

Christine: So what I'm gonna do is I'm gonna cut the cord, but the more you put yourself in that environment, it's gonna come back.  

Christine: And as I like touch this cord, it feels like it's ready to be removed. 

Christine: Like you're just, you're happy to get rid of this.

Listener: I feel like a heat right here.  

Christine: This feels like this is a deep wound.  

Christine: Be very gentle with yourself.  

Christine: Like after this reading, I want you to like drink water.  

Christine: When you go to bed tonight, put your hands over your heart and say really loving things to yourself.  

Christine: Like that you love yourself.  

Christine: I love my inner child.  

Christine: I'm here for you.  

Christine: Okay, Renee, are you ready for mantras or do you have anything else?  

Renee: I love myself enough today.  

Christine: Oh, I love that.  

Renee: So the idea being each day, like we want to love ourselves.  

Renee: We want to have self-love.  

Renee: We want to care for ourselves physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually. 

Renee: The example I gave earlier, you eat a single piece of chocolate, but you really enjoyed it. 

Renee: That was what you did to love yourself enough today.

Christine: And the mantra that I got was I am strong.

Christine: I am powerful.

Christine: And I really, if you can, I want you to say this when you wake up, before you get out of bed three to five times.  

Christine: I am strong.  

Christine: I am powerful.  

Christine: I am strong. 

Christine: I am powerful. 

Listener: I don't say that exact thing, but I definitely sometimes have to tell myself I'm strong because the surroundings make me feel very weak.  

Renee: How are you feeling after the reading?  

Listener: Well, I feel like it confirmed a lot of things that I was thinking and directions that I feel all the right direction. 

Listener: And should I go that way?

Listener: Shouldn't I go that way?  

Listener: Christine, you mentioned before about being surrounded by people.  

Listener: I'm around people that one, don't like me or two, I don't have as much support as I can in the current situation.

Christine: And the more that you're moving on and moving forward and putting distance between yourself and these people, the less you'll start to feel that.

Listener: It's almost like a boundary being.

Christine: Yes.

Christine: Yes.

Renee: Because in some ways, it could be a literal boundary.

Renee: When I spend time with these people, I feel horrible afterwards.

Renee: So actions you could take are not spend time with them, spend less time with them.

Renee: But also by you having a self-love practice of nurturing yourself, then you enter the space with them with a different mindset, a different energy.

Renee: And not in the sense that you have walls up, you have such a better understanding of yourself and what you bring to the table.

Renee: You're not going to take crap from them because you're going to feel different, and then you're going to be able to bounce back faster as you leave the situations, or get yourself out.  

Renee: You're like, I'm sorry, but not sorry.

Renee: I'm exiting now.

Renee: We were supposed to get together for three hours.

Renee: We made it to one.

Renee: I'm out.

Renee: Nice to see you.

Renee: And you leave.

Listener: When you said that, it made me think like, I'm surrounded by it so much that you almost don't see it anymore, because it became your new normal.

Listener: But when it wasn't surrounded so much, you were able to look at it from the outside perspective.

Listener: But now you can't do that because you're literally drowning.  

Renee: Yeah, there's a quote.  

Renee: I'm completely paraphrasing this because I forget who said it.  

Renee: But it's about like a fish in water, like doesn't realize that it's in water, because everything is water.  

Renee: The water gets dirty and it has to be filtered, and you have to clean everything out. 

Renee: And when you're living in it, you start to just acclimate, and then you're adjusting so much or compensating so much for the conditions that you just get used to that.

Renee: You took a day trip or you spent a weekend at a family member's house, and then you come back.  

Renee: There's something within you that shifts.  

Renee: And it's just about being in a different environment, even if it's only for a short period of time.  

Listener: Yes, I could see that.  

Listener: They lost my mom and my dad. 

Listener: And my mom and I were extremely connected, literally one person.

Listener: For some reason, without the strength of my mom, I caved and I lost my whole being and my whole self to this dark, I'm gonna call it the dark side, because I feel like I went on the dark side with people who were just toxic for me.  

Listener: And now I feel like I'm looking at it from a different side.  

Listener: I guess I took it for granted my whole life, because I always had such a powerful support from my family that I never knew how lucky I was. 

Christine: What necklace of your mom's that you wear?

Christine: Because I feel like she's showing me a necklace.  

Listener: So this is a butterfly necklace that when my mom went into the emergency room, she took it off.  

Listener: And she put it on, I took it and I put it on. 

Christine: Oh my God.

Listener: And over time, all of a sudden, the half of the wing, I don't know if you could say it.

Christine: Yeah.

Listener: Came out.

Listener: So, yeah.

Listener: So I always look at it as like something with that half of a wing came home from school with a butterfly that it was, it was a butterfly he made and it was in half, broken.

Listener: And there were other times that a half winged creature or like butterfly has come.

Renee: So that is definitely a sign and symbol for you because you've gotten it.  

Renee: That's a language and connection that you can continue to develop with your mom, that you'll know when you see that, that's her reaching out to you and that's her supporting you.

Listener: Yeah, because when my grandmother died, it was a butterfly, we always would say, and then my mom died like same thing.

Listener: So I feel my mom's energy in this necklace.

Listener: And I actually have one of her bracelets on too that I actually, they were like a friendship bracelet that we both had, and I had lost hers.

Listener: And one day I found it where I looked a thousand times.

Listener: But it took almost a year to find it.

Listener: Thank you for that, because that made me, thank you.

Listener: That filled my heart.

Christine: Good, anything else before we go?

Listener: No, I'm good, I appreciate everything.

Listener: And this was wonderful, thank you.

Christine: Thanks for listening.

Christine: If you'd like to learn more, the resources we used to prepare for this episode are listed in the show notes.

Renee: If you're curious to develop your intuition, we've partnered with the Nuurvana Be Light program to give our listeners a $500 discount on tuition fees.

Renee: Email us for more details and we'll connect you with the founder, Deganit Nuur.

Christine: Want to connect with us?

Christine: You can reach me, Christine, @ChanneledbyChristine with one L on Instagram.

Renee: And you can reach me, Renee, @_readbyrenee, or connect with both of us via email at synergytosynastry@gmail.com.

Christine: Keep your spirit curious and your aura sparkling.

Renee: We'll see you when the stars next align.

Outro

Renee: Did you ever do in elementary school, like have one of your teachers have a class pet and then everyone takes turns bringing them home?

Christine: Yes.

Christine: I hated it.

Christine: I was never allowed to take the pet home because my cats were always going to eat it.

Christine: Whatever it was, was a small thing that my cats were going to devour.

Renee: Our issue with this hamster and why we then decided we don't want a hamster.

Renee: The cage would sit in the corner of our family room way in the back, and you would just hear, you just hear the wheel and it's pitch black in there, and the things just running on the wheel.

Renee: I remember us talking about, we're like, this is freaky.

Renee: It sounds like there's somebody in there.

Christine: It is freaky.